Feelings

Smile
It makes a world of difference.




Dance
Who knows when you won't be able to.




Cry
Holding those emotions in is bad for you.




Kiss
Kisses are the most wonderful things in the world.




Laugh
What's the point in hiding happiness?




Frown
Why not let him know you're unhappy?




Apologize
You don't want to lose friends.




Hug
There's no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love.




Live
Because life is everything.

You saved me

I know it's been a while since we last met that was on the 12th of April for a karaoke at The Curve. I do miss you, badly. Only by keeping in touch through text messages or Yahoo Messenger, with all the exams and grounding session finally i get to see you today. Thanks Feeq! I'm happy :)

There are tonnes of things i need to update you, after hibernation and depression. I guess i'm not ready to update you, soon i'll be back. I'm feeling better, you kind of saved me today from *secret*. Haha

We'll hang out together soon k, i miss you loads bestie. You're one of my bestest friend besides Aiman, wink! See you soon, take care always.

Hibernation

I'm done with my exams, currently on my semester break since i passed all without any viva border line interviews. Alhamdulillah, an awesome experience for the first time. I will be entering my new semester for my 4th year on the 10th of July. That's all about study life!

Sorry to my friends because i didn't make an effort to meet all of you, by the way i'm not meeting anybody for the moment. It's been like 7 weeks already since my study week started? Just wait, the time will come.

My routine now is only going to the gym daily, working out like nobody's business. No more having lunch or dinner outside, no rice for already 2 weeks. Any changes? Surprise, haha.

6-7 more weeks of holidays, what to do? Nothing that i can think of, in this pennyless condition made me felt so left out out of a sudden. Gyming je lah kan senang!

First activity on last Saturday, photoshoot at an abandoned house in Ampang with Qim and Joey. A little bit scary but a new experience for me, kerja aku pegang reflector la. Pity me, lol. Slept over at my doctor's house for two nights, having our days together to the max! I attended a dinner at Summit Hotel accompanying her, for a tudung brand "Nu Nuh International" so i have to dress like a muslimah. I look sweet no matter what i wear ok, perasan sekejap. 

Qim, me & Joey

>.<

I can't really sleep at her house, i don't have my bantal busuk with me. First night i slept from 5am to 8am and 620am to 9am on the second night, kesian i kan. So i terus take a nap right after reaching home at about 12pm after having my breaksfast, my nephew woke me up at 330pm asking me to go to the gym. He's getting smarter and smarter day by day, seriously he's following my footsteps. A born intelligent baby, hehe.

I had a dream during my nap, maybe it's because i think so hard that it is brought into my dreams. A sad one, it's about a dinner which i said i'm leaving. I really hope the specific someone will be same like others asking me to stay but i only get and answer of "Oh ok." from this person. How disappointed, erm i changed my mine la. I don't feel like storying further about it, let's just drop it. Hmm, i'm kind of tired now. Good night humans! 

How can i put these into words

How should i put this into words, i wish i wouldn't hurt anyone. I guess it's time to say it rather than keeping it all alone, i'm so sorry. 

I don't want to meet anyone right now.


I don't want to hangout like i used to do.


I want the whole 8 weeks all by myself.


I'm on a mission so no more shopping or wasting money unnecessarily.


I'm so not me anymore without few important people in my life.


I won't answer calls or reply messages if i don't feel like doing so.

How else should i say, just leave me alone. I'll talk if i want, i'll go out whenever i wish and i'll meet whoever i feel like meeting. Don't force me please, don't ever ask why. I tend to get bored with life, i'm fed up of it. So sorry guys, i need time.

I'll be done with everything by the 14th of May, by then don't find me. I'm begging please, don't find me. Give me space, things aren't so perfect right now as it used to be. I want quality time with family now, i wish for it. Please, just once~

I Like ... but I Hate ...

Previously i used to like the name Jasmine, but now i like the the word Pelangi. Out of nowhere, it struck my mind. A bit of a sudden, i have no idea too. 

Now i don't wish for more friends, instead i just want to sustain who i have. All of them are the perfect-est species on earth meant to be with me, perasan lebih but it's true. I don't care, i want them and only them.

I hate those who just come and go for no reason, irritating and annoying. Get out of my way, i treasure those who are true to me.