Dead and gone

How shall I describe a situation where you seems to have everything yet you feel like you have nothing?

I am currently feeling that way but why is that so?

Why of all time, why is it now?

Too many questions in my mind right now! To be continued...

When Everything About ME Is YOU

2013 is the year I planned to start everything anew, my resolution for this year and guess what? I made to to almost two third of the year looking ahead. Pray for me to keep it up!

There are ups and downs especially in my career as I am just a beginner in working life. Just imagine I had never work before in my life and suddenly I am working now. Few places I had been rotation according to my scheduled FYDO program and lastly I am attaching with the OMFS (oral maxillofacial surgery) in HTAR (Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah) in Klang. To be exact only 800m from home!

A tough routine to be in with the oncalls, ward rounds, cancer patients and etc. Being oncall is the worst part ever where you have to be alert for 24 hours if being called. For me yesterday was the most hectic day ever with the fasting month going on, worked from 7am till 11pm nonstop. This coming Thursday would be another oncall, oh gosh why can't I be free from oncalls for a week at least? Nevermind it's my job and I will do it sincerely.

I think I am lucky enough to have you in my life. I know I did not expect your existence to be this important to me at first but somehow you are strong to keep up with me. I know I am unstable when I am in HTAR now but you never stop giving me the spirit to carry on. Yes, I will be you Panda forever and you will be my Pingu forever too. Thank you for meeting my parents. You made me proud of you when they can love you on the first meet up. I am happy with you.

A lesson for me from the mistakes I had done before. This time I will be more humble than previously, more matured I mean. Our memories will only stay with us and not shared publicly. I just want you to stay forever, fullstop. I don't know how to beat around the bushes and to talk hints so I am telling you straight. I can't imagine how I would be if I don't have you. I love my life now when you taught me to live positively.

When Everything About Me Is YOU!