A Loss

Today is the 26th of December 2011, a few days left before entering a new year of 2012. Hopefully it will be a great year for me, Insyallah :)

 Ok back on track with today, had fun because I get to meet my besties Furzanne and Erina although Khai Li hasn't had the chance to join due to her upcoming exams. Oh yea, my cousin followed too.

While waiting for Furzanne and Erina, both of us had Tutti Frutti as the appetizer. We planned to have lunch at Homst Chinese Muslim Restaurant in Taman Tun Dr Ismail but it seems there were no place for us to sit so we went to Canadian Pizza which is few doors away. Not bad although it couldn't challenge Papa John, at least edible. It was my first time there, the nicest part was we're the only customer at that time. Hahaha~

Next only my cousin and me went to The Gardens, Mid Valley. She wanted to fine her architecture stuff there so I just followed since I had nothing to do at home either. Well normally I was the one so eager if it is about shopping regardless during sale season or not.

Somehow I wasn't that excited, instead I felt like going home ASAP. I don't know what was wrong but I just don't feel good. Uneasy. Indescribable.

To be exact, I feel lonely, I miss being clingy to a person. Maybe my nature that I can't stand alone :(

Brother's merisik ceremony

29th October 2011

Hantaran sebelah pengantin lelaki

Hantaran sebelah pengantin perempuan

Mama putting on the ring on her

Her ring

 Love is in the air

Family of the girl's side

Raya 2011 in Singapore

Raya 2011 in hometown :)

 the siblings shopping spree

 the handsome baby

 Smurf exhibition in town

cicits to my grandparents

 siblings on Raya

 niece and nephew

 parents and grandparents

the moment will never repeat

big family in Singapore

 night walk at Merlion

 beloved mama & daddy

 exactly like copy & paste right?

 <3

a perfect family

 mama and her siblings

:)

I hope to have my 2012 raya in Singapore again, I love it there especially it comes to shopping. Hehe

A dream. Sixth sense or Telepathy?

Few weird incidents happening lately, and I was given guts to do what I am not supposed to do but somehow I did it. Sigh~

The last 2 Fridays, I dreamt of the person I admire so much back in 2006/7 and I was so much into him. Maybe dah tak berjodoh we did not even declare actually, then things went upside down and we were separated. Old old story la, should not think about the past.

Quite to my surprise, I dreamt of him on that Friday the 18th of November. I woke up in a shock but my mind could not stop thinking, what actually happen. Is he alright? I tried to find ways to get to talk to him, of course without letting my boyfriend know about this. He will surely be upset if he knows, I don't want to hurt him. Ikhtiar punya ikhtiar I remembered I have his Muar house phone number. I called and I told "Ni Hamizah, kawan lama dia." the phone was hung up right away. I tried dialing again and TUPP!!! I was hung up again. 

I am not lingering with the past, I was just curious about you and I wanted to wish Salam Maal Hijrah because for this few years I could not face my own fear of losing you. Now I kinda moved on, totally actually but you are being dramatic. Whatever la, as usual I siasat sampai ke lubang cacing. 

So sad, he broke up with his current girlfriend on the day I dreamt of him. 

Sixth sense OR Telepathy?

-The End-

*Actually plan to update photos of Raya Puasa 2011, my brother's merisik and engagement photos. Later on yea, peace~

Fate

Hey all! It has been 4 months of silence and now I'm back. I think I had been bias here, I only come here when I'm sad and nobody to turn to. Nevermind, not to waste my time. Today I'll talk about FATE. This is what lead us to our destiny. *cehwah ayat tak menahan*

Fate is a big word. It is what our life were meant to be. How nice if we could see the ending of any path of life chosen. How would you feel if your ending isn't meaningful to you and it is such a waste of time?

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Single VS Taken

How do we compare life while we are single and while we are someone's unofficially or officially?

When we are single we can do practically whatever we like, being friends with whoever we want, no commitment to anyone, nobody bother what time will you be back and whatsoever.

BUT

Feeling lonely, no company, no people to manja lebih (HAHA), lagi? I think that's it.

When we're taken, being someone's gf/bf will make you feel restiricted. You can't simply go out, everything have to be reported, cannot make friends randomly (especially the opposite sex from you), have to combine decisions, and etc etc.

Benefits? Ada clingy buddy (unlucky me tak berapa clingy, my bffs are way clingier), boleh manja lebih with your bf/gf, lagi? I can't think because now I'm being overwhelmed seeing my sister's marriage problems, a little affects me not to get married in the first place.

Post ni sangat bertentangan dengan my BFF's post entitled "Perkahwinan", sorry for letting you refer to Aiman's post =)

Jauh di lubuk hati, I wanted to get married. In fact nak kahwin awal, unfortunately not fated that way. Unexpectedly my closest cousin getting married next month, aged 23 and all happen in a sudden. He came up to us somewhere in April telling everyone that he wants to get maarried, everyone thought it was a joke until he came back and confirmed to us on the 18th of May 2011 that we can start booking our flight ticket to KK Sabah.

Shocked! Stunned! Segala macam perasaan lah, but I felt jealous sebab study pun belum habis daa! But the fear seeing people's marriage broken also haunting me, looong sigh~

How do we know that our match-made-in-heaven partner would not make us down till like forever? I asked that to my sister today, how perfect things will be if we can see the future before we make a mistake in deciding. The conclusion is, no matter how wise you are there will still be obstacles await you prepared by God for you to grow. Accept it and face it, you can do it! 

Pulau Pangkor

I went to Pulau Pangkor for the last weekend, from 2nd to the 4th of June 2011. Awesome trip with friends, after so long we haven't met. I miss them so much!

Although I seldom go for holidays, I kinda like this place. Small yet cute, ada ke? Can I go again? Of course, planned to go with boyfie this time but unfortunately granny got to know about our plan and she wanted to follow. So no more honeymoon la, ajak satu batalion family la jawab dia. I hope this won't be the only trip for this year, plan more ok! Haha maybe a trip for couples this time LOL