I Feel...

I FEEL life is not fair.
I FEEL people who are envious > people who are proud with your success.
I FEEL my life is complete except love.
I FEEL my love life is a faulty aspect of me.
I FEEL sometimes some people are just lucky to be perfect.
I FEEL why I'm just as lucky like some other people.
I FEEL that I need some space and time.
I FEEL it's not the time to be in love again.
I FEEL it's better to focus on family first.
I FEEL I better play games now!

Take care~

A Loss

Today is the 26th of December 2011, a few days left before entering a new year of 2012. Hopefully it will be a great year for me, Insyallah :)

 Ok back on track with today, had fun because I get to meet my besties Furzanne and Erina although Khai Li hasn't had the chance to join due to her upcoming exams. Oh yea, my cousin followed too.

While waiting for Furzanne and Erina, both of us had Tutti Frutti as the appetizer. We planned to have lunch at Homst Chinese Muslim Restaurant in Taman Tun Dr Ismail but it seems there were no place for us to sit so we went to Canadian Pizza which is few doors away. Not bad although it couldn't challenge Papa John, at least edible. It was my first time there, the nicest part was we're the only customer at that time. Hahaha~

Next only my cousin and me went to The Gardens, Mid Valley. She wanted to fine her architecture stuff there so I just followed since I had nothing to do at home either. Well normally I was the one so eager if it is about shopping regardless during sale season or not.

Somehow I wasn't that excited, instead I felt like going home ASAP. I don't know what was wrong but I just don't feel good. Uneasy. Indescribable.

To be exact, I feel lonely, I miss being clingy to a person. Maybe my nature that I can't stand alone :(

Brother's merisik ceremony

29th October 2011

Hantaran sebelah pengantin lelaki

Hantaran sebelah pengantin perempuan

Mama putting on the ring on her

Her ring

 Love is in the air

Family of the girl's side

Raya 2011 in Singapore

Raya 2011 in hometown :)

 the siblings shopping spree

 the handsome baby

 Smurf exhibition in town

cicits to my grandparents

 siblings on Raya

 niece and nephew

 parents and grandparents

the moment will never repeat

big family in Singapore

 night walk at Merlion

 beloved mama & daddy

 exactly like copy & paste right?

 <3

a perfect family

 mama and her siblings

:)

I hope to have my 2012 raya in Singapore again, I love it there especially it comes to shopping. Hehe

A dream. Sixth sense or Telepathy?

Few weird incidents happening lately, and I was given guts to do what I am not supposed to do but somehow I did it. Sigh~

The last 2 Fridays, I dreamt of the person I admire so much back in 2006/7 and I was so much into him. Maybe dah tak berjodoh we did not even declare actually, then things went upside down and we were separated. Old old story la, should not think about the past.

Quite to my surprise, I dreamt of him on that Friday the 18th of November. I woke up in a shock but my mind could not stop thinking, what actually happen. Is he alright? I tried to find ways to get to talk to him, of course without letting my boyfriend know about this. He will surely be upset if he knows, I don't want to hurt him. Ikhtiar punya ikhtiar I remembered I have his Muar house phone number. I called and I told "Ni Hamizah, kawan lama dia." the phone was hung up right away. I tried dialing again and TUPP!!! I was hung up again. 

I am not lingering with the past, I was just curious about you and I wanted to wish Salam Maal Hijrah because for this few years I could not face my own fear of losing you. Now I kinda moved on, totally actually but you are being dramatic. Whatever la, as usual I siasat sampai ke lubang cacing. 

So sad, he broke up with his current girlfriend on the day I dreamt of him. 

Sixth sense OR Telepathy?

-The End-

*Actually plan to update photos of Raya Puasa 2011, my brother's merisik and engagement photos. Later on yea, peace~