The Wait

Waiting is a suffer as it gives us the 50-50 hope whether what we wish for will either happen or not. Last Sunday my Baby Sony was spoilt, both the machine and the memory card too. The photos inside lost although i know it is so precious to my doctor since it contains her Bobbi Brown makeover photos. I'm guilty though but i'm sad at the same time, the camera is one of my most precious thing ever. It never leave me in no matter what condition, 24-7 in my handbag no matter for outings or classes.

I've sent the card for recovery at Sony Service Centre, hopefully some of the photos at least can be saved. Almost a week passed but i never get any call on updates for my memory card. I'm missing it badly! I guess it merajuk, thought that it will be replaced soon with Sony DSC-TX7. No no not that i'm neglecting you, it's just that i'm upgrading.

Yesterday is Fathur's birthday, i didn't get to celebrated on the 12am moment because i'm at home and kind of broke. Today he asked me out to accompany him, we went to One Utama to find his Zara hat but it's sold out so he got a hat from FourSkin. Next destination to Tropicana Mall, lunch at Sushi Tei then to Ikano to get his new sugar glider. I have goosebumps seeing them, geli kot tak boleh tahan with these small creatures. Haha, not to forget a new cage set. Lastly went to his house to help decorate the cage and chilling at his place playing his cats, at last Baby is not biting me. His mom did gave me a souvenir from Bali, couldn't catch much what she said. I got a dress, so fun teasing Fathur because he hasn't get anything from his parents but i got a dress from his mom. Kidding busuk! Tomorrow back to normal, gyming daily.

That's all folks :)

29th May 2010

"I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you."

- Dawsons Creek

Loved

You and I
And it’s okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I’ll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that’s okay
Cause I’ll remember everything you sang.





If It Kills Me
If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again




Wordplay
I built a bridge across the stream my consciousness
It always seems to be a flowin'
But I don't know which way my brain is goin'
Oh the ryhmin' and the timin'
Keeps the melodies inside me
And they're comin'
Till I'm running out of air
Are you prepared to take a dive into the deep end of my head
Are you listening to a single word I've said





Try Try Try
Sometimes we do forget to behave
And we regret what we say
Cause words are too weapons
If we don't choose'em carefully
Ladies and gentlemen this is instrumental
If life's to be a bed of roses




The Heart Never Lies
Some people fight,and some people fall
Others pretend, they dont care at all
If you wanna fight, i'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall, i'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces





Lonely
And I remember you told me baby
Somethings gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you baby
I dont think I could live
Now Im so sick of being lonely
This is killing me so so slowly
Dont pretend that you dont know me
'Cause thats the worst thing you could do!





Point of View
I never wanted everything to end this way,
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey.
I swore to you that I would do my best to change,
But you said it don't matter,
I'm looking at you from another point of view.





What Do You Want From Me
Just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe.





Putus
tapi setelah kau pegi aku
mendapat lebih baik drmu,
dia hargai aku,
dia sygi aku
lebih drpdmu,
aku ingin kau tahu betapa ku gembira,
tidak lg bersamamu.





Kebahagiaan dalam Perpisahan
Embun pun takkan mampu menyubur sekuntum
Bunga yang layu pada musim luruh
Yang dulunya mekar di sinar suria
Bila sudah kering pasti akan gugur

=.=

Finally i managed to find time after gyming and went to i-City by the Federal Highway, amazed for a moment when i was there. So lame when it is so near to my house but i'm the latest person being there, lots of UM-ians had visited there. Finally, i'm there too. You guys just don't know how much i love lights, fireworks, and any colorful things. I only captured photos of the lights, non of me in it. My photos are in Aime's camera, cepat lah upload i nak kidnap my photos ni. So lambat although you're already back in Kedah, cett~

the trees of lights, pretty aren't they?

practising depth of field :)

Nak tak nak i have to meet few friends, it's been weeks since i met them including my cousin. I went gyming with my cousin together with a movie "A Nightmare on Elm's Street" that evening and supper at Mamak. Next was last night i met Urosha, an adorable sweet friend you'll never find elsewhere. Did some updating but nothing much on my side haha, followed by a midnight movie "The Bounty Hunter" at the cinema behind my house. Sorry couldn't take photo with you since i'm in my pyjamas, a good reason ok :p

Hamizah & Humaira

Today after so long i met up with Zahidah but without Capak, i miss her loads. She thought she can meet a friend there but i said i don't want to be the centre person contacting, if she wants she call herself. End up she didn't get to meet him, told her but she refused to listen. We spend whole day in Mid Valley, movie again "Letter to Juliet". Such a romantic movie, a story about a woman who tries to find her first love after 50 years at Verona. It's wonderful but i wonder does true love ever exist in reality? There's always some definition behind a relationship either materialistic or tumpang famous and whatsoever, not all but hardly we find a sincerely loving couple who loves each other as what they are. 

<3 you, see you on Friday

I suggest to you people outside watch it, then take the spirit from this movie that is not to give up in finding the right person. There's another one too, a movie entitled "Dear John" that was only release in the USA. A story from the writer Nicholas Sparks, awesome!

Lately i love watching movies especially the sad ones, i'll pause it in the middle and cry then play it again. I know i sounded silly at least better than crying for no reason, haha ignore that part. I get an invitation for Zouk this Thursday night, i haven't decide on this but more to a NO. Not in the mood yet, my 8 weeks are not done yet. What i've said, i really mean it. Everything depends on my mood so be prepared :)

Is Friday a public holiday? I heard people saying but i didn't check my planner, a Wesak Day it seems. Zahidah and me planned for a movie again, "Prince of Persia" this time. Erm i guess of going to The Curve this time, can get my cupcakes frm Cupcake Chic. Weee~

Alone

Now is the time where fakers leave and only true ones remain. I guess this is the most hurtful period ever for me, to know all this while you're surrounded by fakers who is only using you for their own benefits.

I know i'm just stupid for being such an idiot letting them to use me, when i arise and begin to be wise i saw them left because i can't be used anymore. I'm already smart! To my surprise it's like those whom i thought were good to me ain't that sincere after all, IT IS painful. As we always know, "Truths are bitter, lies are sweet" right?

More fakers than loyals? OMG what is happening to the world, why do this kind of human ever exist if they just live to hurt others. I never think bad of you, i never believe when people badmouth about you either unless i hear it from you yourself. I waited for you to come back but you avoided me as though i know your secrets, i still forgive because there's nothing more that annoys a loser babe. I'm done, it's time to let go. I've always been the the victim, the one who is not involved but always been affected badly.

For your information, i'm not insensitive but i'm just living on memories. Photos of us are my only booster for me to carry on with my life, the only charger for me. I don't have them anymore like i used to, find it out then you'll know i don't have them anymore. I only talk on memories, just plainly memories.

No more.

They're gone.

I lost them.

I'm alone.

I ALREADY LOST THEM!

For God sake why can't you see i don't have them anymore!