To be loved is not easy..Happy Valentine's Day

This coming Sunday will be the most precious day for couples, with exception to those who don't believe this. Neither do i, but i love buying flowers and also do dedications to my besties. Seriously just for fun, nothing to do with the beliefs. I'm single, but heart taken. How is that? Whatever lah. 

Happy Valentine's Day!

To be loved is not easy, i guess so. If say i'm the one who fly, will people be sad of me leaving? I don't think so, i'm not lovable enough la. Everytime only me finding people, naah i want to be alone from now on. That's all, fullstop.

!0.23 am, Techinician Lab, University Malaya - Hamizah is writing this blog while doing some revision for her last paper starting at 11.30am ending at 12.35pm. Right after the paper she will be going directly to the LCCT terminal to catch her flight to Pulau Langkawi at 4.10pm, quite nervous because this is my first time flying alone. Haha, pity her. It's ok, she's independent enough to do everything by herself. She's a grown up, yeah!

Feeq! Wait for me tau, i'm scared. Hehe, mengada saja kan. Last night i slept early since i was having gastric earlier that day, no chance to eat due to time constraint with my exams and also my outing with my beloved nephew.

Happy 7th Birthday my dear Danish! Aunty loves you so much.

I was quite sad that i could not spend time with him on his birthday, so i decided to buy his birthday gift yesterday. At first he wanted Ultraman toy, tiba-tiba i went home he was jumping while showing his Ultraman. Oh daddy bought it for him, then he asked for "Ice Age 3" story book. We went to Aeon behind my house, the book was sold out so he chose a Pre-historic book. Expensive weh! Haha, once a year only la kan. 

Hey, i guess i'll stop here and i'll focus on my revision. Wish me luck! To my beloved best friend, i miss you.

Fly ~

Today the 9th of February, my best friend will be flying to Aussie. I guess he's already at the airport at this hour, with loads of tissue wiping the tears sampai boleh perah already. I had exam earlier, from 9am to 11am. I thought of dropping by at his house for the last time but his family needs him, it's ok. I wish to follow him to KLIA but he advised me since last Friday itself better not to go. It will make it harder for him when there's more people, well i'm the type that easily broke down so i decided not to go too. 

" No goodbyes ok, only see you! "

To my beloved best friend, take care always. Not to forget, better remain handsome nanti you balik i tak kenal already how? Haha, just kidding. All the best in your studies and do keep in touch, i know for the time being it will be a little difficult to contact since you have loads of things to be settled. Tell me when you're done and get a place to stay ok, i'll wait for you. I like when you said " Don't worry, aiMAN to the rescue. " Haha, funny though. It does make me smile, thank you for being with me all the time. Everyday also will have story mowry session, i will talk until your telinga cair. Sorry~

thank you Saiful and Ima!

how you guys know that i love chocolate? sedap tau!

Last Friday was my last night with my beloved Aiman, Saiful and Ima. At first i planned to have a dinner on a cruise but it was canceled since the total of person that night doesn't reach 15 pax, then i don't know where to go. Aiman asked is it ok if we go Hotel Equitorial Bangi? I don't mind, it's just that i don't know the way so he drove there. Semua orang pun nak surprise, baju glamour belaka. A fun night, but one thing i didn't expect. That night was supposed to be a farewell for Aiman but it turned out to be my surprise birthday celebration, Aiman didn't know about it too. Thank you so much Ima and Saiful, i was so touched with your surprise. I love it!

Me

Aiman

Saiful

Ima

Theme for the day was Black & White, surely you guys will say i got no other colors to choose. Biarlah my favourite, wekk! I know i hold on till the last minute that i still broke down, sorry tau. Serious buruk gila, crying like a crazy woman. Haha, but what to do i'm so fragile la. I came home at 4am, i wish i could stay for another 5 minutes with you. " You must be strong for me Miza! ", Aiman said. Bodoh betul lah i don't know what else to write tapi nak merepek juga, just stay on.

That night, i met Nottee and Skixty (i don't know the spelling betul ke tak, sorry). So cute, i just haven't meet with Beta but i hear stories about her. Haha, can guess what is it? By the way, this are the gifts from them. So sweet of them!

mana Nottee mana Skixty i don't know, haha

from Aiman

from Saiful and Ima

Sesi photo berlangsung as usual, moreover all of us love taking photos. Messing up the room, laughing for tiny jokes, it's just enjoying.

muka cover mengantuk masing-masing

cantik kan? i see stars!

Tonight i want to have a tight sleep, i had been through few sleepless nights just because of a dream. I have to rest no matter what, panda eyes have now looked like a goldfish eyes. Haha, adios amigos.

* p.s. currently listening to this song "Stay" by Estrella, tiba-tiba feeling =)

I have no paper for tomorrow, continuing again on Thursday and Friday. I'm so excited about flying to Langkawi, at least fly lah juga eventhough not to Aussie kan. Cett~ I will be relaxing like nobody's business and have a good meal, where to eat tomorrow? Boring boring boring! I just cannot wait to get more photos from Siti Monalisa, Kak Non and Ima's Sony soon, i want to see those moments again. 

Precious moments with them~

Februarilicious

I just love this particular month, February. My birthdate falls in this month, luckily i'm not a leap year baby if not i only celebrates my birthday 4 years once. Anyway 1989 is not a leap year, thank God.

Surprisingly, this month too has the most of my friend's birthdays compared to other months. Pokai la saya buying gifts, nevermind as long as i'm happy and i like seeing all of them happy too. Priceless!

My beloved whose birthdays fall in February too =)

mine on the 2nd

Zahidah's on the 6th

Feeq's on the 11th

Adrian's on the 12th

Our birthdates are 10 days apart, same like my parents. Is this what we call destiny? Only that he's 2 years elder than me, unlike my parents. Both of them are sebaya, aren't they sweet?

Danish's on the 12th too

Uyu's on the 13th

Hazwani's on the 14th

Seriously the broke-est month of every year, hahaha. Februarians are always the coolest and special ones, right? Perasan case sikit, sorry la i'm just so happy after receiving a text from special someone.

On the first day of the month, spent time with Feeq. He brought me to Putrajaya since i've never been there for photoshoot, i took photos of the scenery. Sunny day, perfect lighting. Lunch at Nando's there and did some walking, afraid that we will be dark or sunburn so we decided to move. Next to Alamanda, took my Roxy travel bag that i reserved and also watched a hilariously funny malay movie "Adnan Sempit". Lastly had dinner at McDonald Bangsar, pity him for driving the whole day. Sorry for troubling you Feeq, i don't know the way to Putrajaya.

Putrajaya mosque

On my birthday from sharp 12am, i received lots of messages and comments wishing me. Thanks people, i really appreciate it. Family did a surprise party for me, just a simple one since i'm on my study leave. A cake, Pizza Hut & KFC as i have many little cousins. My sister gave me a white gold necklace, with a love shape pendant. Thanks bangau-ku, hehe. Her gelaran, surely i'll call that aloud everytime she makes me angry.

Chocolate Temptation

necklace from Jasbir (sister)

Earlier before Syafiq flew back to France, he gave me this. Thank you! Five more months left until you're home for good, can't wait for the time to come. Rindu to karaoke together la, haha.

Miss Sixty, WOW!

Tonight is the most important one, he wished me. It's ok eventhough he's one day late, it recharged me anyway. Suddenly i'm smiling away, alone seeing the text on my phone and reading it repeatedly. 

"happy birthday gal."

I was stunned, calling me gal? Don't la, back to beb please. I feel awkward, prefer babe more. Only you called me that constantly, good!

A letter to special someone :

Dear Mr. love,

Thanks for the belated birthday wish, excited ni with your birthday gift. Haha, not me who make the promise ok. You made the promise, so i'll surely tuntut until i get it. A session to karaoke with you, it's always been in my wishlist you know. Not liking Singapore? Haha, go somewhere else la. It's so good to hear that you're not under stress anymore, seeing you smile do cheer me up. Hehe, i miss you babe! Looking forward for our day, wee~

Truthfully,

-your crush-

My Bedtime Story

I just recovered from my fever after having 2 days of MC from classes, actually escaping from classes were my happiest moments. Haha, bad me. I've been dreaming of weird things, it's like i can remember the people who were being dreamt about but i can't remember their faces when i woke up. Then i tend to forget things more often now, the place where i put this  and that etc etc. Sadly on last Wednesday, Yetching asked me what movie that i watched the latest. For me to answer Legion took me about 30 minutes? It just happened not even a week ago, this is so not good. Is it a sign or something?

Four more days of countdown, i'm not excited about it. I'm more afraid when February arrives, i'll have one important person lesser after the 9th. I'm so looking forward about the dinner on a cruise, at the same time i wish i could pause the time. What are you wearing that night? It's been three nights we did not talk, are you there? Missing you =)

I just booked my flight tickets to Langkawi, wasted RM 70 just because the exam schedule was pasted today instead of yesterday. The price for yesterday was RM 163 and today it became RM 233, now the problem is hotel. Most of the places fully booked, whatever it is just go there and find the solution. Fair enough! Mama is happy since we're taking flight, coming back with train. Everything pun first time, apa lah saya ni. Very the outdated, cett~ 

Wednesday and Thursday, Robinsons member day sale preview was held and i went for both days. I was sick since Tuesday night, had fever for no reason. I didn't play neither under the hot sun nor the rain, but i still get fever. Mama is just so understanding that she asked me to cheer up, go to the sale and do some shopping. I did not go to class but i went to The Gardens with Yetching, she's kind of concern about what is happening around me. Anyway she wanted to buy new shoes for class, i just followed while doing some surveying. I bought a STUPID transparent shoes and a rose hairband, brown one this time. So called Cinderella shoes, haih.

No class on Thursday, only conference and that also i was absent. I went for blood screening, next to Kamal bookshop to buy my medical books and again to The Gardens to find for a new handbag. Feeq joined me, he came few hours earlier before his work time. I bought a pair of Roxy shoes and a pencil case, thanks to the STUPID shoes that made my feet bleed so now my Roxy shoes has blood stain. Ouch, it hurts so badly that i hardly walk. Please heal before Monday, i hope too much for it. There's a pair of key chain i bought, no boyfriend to give but i still bought it both for myself. Perhaps for the future, who knows right. I love it, sooo cute! I'm always having non-rice meal whenever i go out with Feeq,  i had assam laksa at Little Penang Cafe for lunch and Country Chicken for dinner at Chilis on that Friday. I've been craving for Chilis a long time since the last i ate there, the last was last year on my birthday itself. Rindu rindu for their Fish & Chips, it's ok. Feeq! Jom Chilis lagi, haha. Movies together again, i had fun!

forever together keychains

Frustratedly, i can't find any handbags that i like after being in Robinsons for almost 5 hours! Any suggestions on what brand handbags to buy? Something different please, as in not the one i'm seeing in 2 out of 5 ladies wearing. Nevermind i'll surely find it one day, one fine day.

My feet hurt! Painful! Arghh! Applied lotion, lots of them but still. 

Change topic~

Ipad just being launched by Apple two days back, what is that actually? In tablet form, a computer or a phone? I'm confused, has it arrive to Malaysia because i want to have a look at it. Lucky me i haven't take my Macbook Pro, or else i can't change my mind in case of anything.

Today was our last day of semester 2.1, a few more months to go before i end my third year of degree. Study week starting so i'm going to be all out for my revision, hibernation of online starts too i guess i should say see you around after 15th of February when i'm back from vacation. I hope i won't forget that i have a plane to rush on right after my exam, no sembang-sembang after the last paper on Friday. Flight at 4.10pm, wee~ I'm so happy going on a vacation, far ones without family. How long can you be a baby to your family, i'm standing on my own now and trying to be independent. Peace!

Forgot forgot! I'm attracted at first sight with a boy who work at Starbucks Skypark, shock to hear this? I met him twice, it's been two Mondays i saw him when i fetched dad from the airport. I just want to be friends with him, i find ways and lastly i get to talk to him personally. His name is Adam, why i'm just too blur for not seeing the receipt written his name but i called the branch asking for the smartest looking person working there. Interesting story over here, but i couldn't manage to get his number. It's ok since i don't have any intention to be with anybody or somebody, enjoying life is better. Anyway i'll be going to the airport again this coming Monday, wish me luck. That's all folks!



Berita gegar, Mama will be going for umrah this Mac during the school holidays with granny. I can't follow due to the clinics and classes, it will be for 11 days. Mama, don't worry me and Baba will be fine at home. Worse come to worst, both of us will overslept la, haha. Just be happy there, selamat pergi dan selamat kembali. Mama, i love you so much!

A letter to special someone :

Dear Mr. love,

Hey babe, it's been a while since we last talk and met. Forget me can? Don't contact me anymore, i feel so alone without you so why not i don't own you for real. Already 17 days since your last sms, i miss you. I heard you're in SG, are you there or still planning? The launch of 7atenine branch there seems to be grand, pity you will have lots of work. Go with your busyness, i think the Malaysia first person also have time to contact their friends to chill together. By the way, i have lost track updating you about myself. Where i go and with who i go anywhere, you're to slow to keep up. Whatever it is, i'll wait for your calls and texts just as a friend. Nothing more, see you.

Truthfully,

-your crush-

Woohoo~

Before this everything seems like hanging, no distinct answers for this and that. Earlier today when i was in Shah Alam eating with my Mama after doing some shopping, Feeq called telling me that his holiday application was approved. I was so happy, told Mama the plan to Pulau Langkawi with Zahidah and Feeq is on for real. Now some things are certain, i'm visualizing a holiday in Langkawi right after my exams. I've never been there, i know there is a big eagle statue. That's all, i'm so lack of knowledge man. Gosh, you don't know how my mom will make noise because i'm just lazy to take concern on general knowledge matters. Haih, study pun dah banyak lagi nak ambil tahu hal negara dan dunia kah? 

My birthday is coming, my very special 21st birthday. Sounded so grand when you reach 21 years old, i felt the excitement too tanpa sebab. Haha, nothing changes actually i'll still be my daddy's girl. So what, i shall say i don't want to be old. How about back to teens age, nicer that way. I kind of don't like getting old, people's expectation also gets higher as your age. Prefer being young where your mistakes doesn't seems to be a big matter after all, instead people will say "Tak mengapa, dia masih kecil lagi."

Since i entered my degree life, my birthday always fall in the study week. If i organize a party, coursemates wouldn't join. Okay fine, it's ok. This year, i'm afraid because of time matters. Some other important things overlap, i hope i did not hurt anybody with my arrangements seriously. I asked for Mama's advice doing all this, to synchronize with some other bestfriends timing and etc. I guess this is the best ok, Insyallah.

Here goes the arrangements, first celebration cum farewell on a cruise in Putrajaya with a bestfriend and few others. I thought of making it a black & white theme, i'm going to buy a blouse and skirt so i can wear it to my faculty dinner too. Unfortunately that's the only time we can match our free time before he leaves for Australia, by the way i'm taking few hours of my study week. Next is a trip to Langkawi with other two bestfriends, both are Februarians too. All of us celebrating there, leaving on the last day of my exam that is the 12th until 15th since Feeq gets holiday from 11th to the 15th. I know on the specific 2nd of February, my family will do a surprise party for me. Tahu-tahu saja kan, already a routine so act like it was surprised by it sudah. Haha

Lastly, a real party for my bestfriends at either Chinoz on the Park or The Apartments. Undecided yet, see how it goes then. Most probably on the 20th or 21st of February, gila basi la but i just couldn't help it. I'll make whole February is my month, i'm loving it. Alhamdulillah with everything that is happening, wish for the good to last forever.

10 more days to go, semangatnya.

Jom countdown sama-sama, haha.

Next to story is about my wishlist gifts, wee~