Attitude - Life - Rules

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same."

Sometimes doing what is hardest for you to do, and doing what is best, is the same exact thing. If we ever desire to live a righteous life, we have to be willing to sometimes not speak our mind when we know we can prove a point. It may mean saying goodbye to a person in your life that you never thought you would have to be without. Doing the right thing may mean that you have to go against the majority or popular opinion to stand up for what you feel in your heart you should stand up for. 


Doing the easiest thing is not always what will be most beneficial to you. Many times we have to challenge our beliefs, our practices, and ourselves to see how we can really grow. So make the extra effort, and ask yourself about the situations that you encounter daily, in a new focus. Don't look to do only what is easiest for yourself; focus on doing what is right.

Working Life

The transition between study life and working life is a major turning point, this is when you cannot be childish or playful that much as before. Everything need some seriousness, I kind of stressed up with this situation but the I have to get used to it. Imagine will be working until I am 60 years old (ikut umur pencen la ni), 37 years of experience will be gained. Banyak kan?

I remembered a dialog with my Senior Dental Officer (SDO) on the day i lapor diri.

SDO: *... bla bla bla (all about the working terms and condition etc.) bla bla bla...* Ni kamu pencen umur 60 ye, kene kerja elok-elok tau.
Me: Doktor, saya start kerja muda setahun dari orang lain boleh tak kalau saya dapat pencen setahun lebih awal?
SDO: Apa salahnya buat pahala lebih setahun dari orang lain :)
Me: =.=' *sweat*


Before working, there's a course called Induksi need to be attend. I would say this is a brainwash for the gradutes about government such as whatever you do please get the appropriate pay or leave replacement or whatsoever-called. Good though, I see the logic there. We pay a lot of tax so why not get back what's given when you already served the country, right?


Back to the story, I attended the Induksi held at City Villa Hotel at the Chowkitt area. Of all places why there? Okay, nak merayap pun takut sebab sebelah dengan Lorong Haji Taib. Four days and three nights there, an awesome experience. I love it, get to know lots of new friends.


Officially started working on the 12th of November 2012 and I would remember it for the lifetime, I will. Lucky me that I got posted all around my house. I am super duper lucky, anyways I will take this advantage to repay my parents with good deed and taking care of them. They are my life, love them to bits. I think I will stop here, wait for my next post about left out posts for Memoirs of 2012. Keep waiting!

Negativity

It is surprisingly amazingly how a person's negative perception can pull you down, sometimes just to the level of touching the ground or maybe sometimes until you felt like been crashed down into the Earth's crust for 6 feet.

My life is my life! Please do not direct my life. I am what I am, you are what you are. Although we are in good terms but that does not mean I have to follow tour path, neither do I asked you to.

Please do not create more negativity in other people if you are filled with it, although if your life failed, etc etc etc. You may regret with my words if I lost my patience, I do not want to create gap but it seems like I have to do it from this moment. I know you tried to be with me and even try being me, unfortunately yoi can't.

I am so sorry, because from now on there will be barrier between us. Thank you!

I Feel...

I FEEL life is not fair.
I FEEL people who are envious > people who are proud with your success.
I FEEL my life is complete except love.
I FEEL my love life is a faulty aspect of me.
I FEEL sometimes some people are just lucky to be perfect.
I FEEL why I'm just as lucky like some other people.
I FEEL that I need some space and time.
I FEEL it's not the time to be in love again.
I FEEL it's better to focus on family first.
I FEEL I better play games now!

Take care~

A Loss

Today is the 26th of December 2011, a few days left before entering a new year of 2012. Hopefully it will be a great year for me, Insyallah :)

 Ok back on track with today, had fun because I get to meet my besties Furzanne and Erina although Khai Li hasn't had the chance to join due to her upcoming exams. Oh yea, my cousin followed too.

While waiting for Furzanne and Erina, both of us had Tutti Frutti as the appetizer. We planned to have lunch at Homst Chinese Muslim Restaurant in Taman Tun Dr Ismail but it seems there were no place for us to sit so we went to Canadian Pizza which is few doors away. Not bad although it couldn't challenge Papa John, at least edible. It was my first time there, the nicest part was we're the only customer at that time. Hahaha~

Next only my cousin and me went to The Gardens, Mid Valley. She wanted to fine her architecture stuff there so I just followed since I had nothing to do at home either. Well normally I was the one so eager if it is about shopping regardless during sale season or not.

Somehow I wasn't that excited, instead I felt like going home ASAP. I don't know what was wrong but I just don't feel good. Uneasy. Indescribable.

To be exact, I feel lonely, I miss being clingy to a person. Maybe my nature that I can't stand alone :(