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3.59 pm sitting in my parent's room watching tv while writing this because my niece and nephew having their agama tuition downstairs, so bored at home on a Thursday without any plan nor $$$. Haha daddy is just super smart that he knows forbidding me from going out doesn't work but by not giving my weekly allowance it takes effect immediately!

Anyway begged daddy for money to fulfill my craves for sushi and tomyam tomorrow at Flying Chilis, hehe macam orang pregnant lah but i'm not ok. I do crave for tomyam almost every 2 to 3 days once, shouldn't call it crave la better say favourite or obsessed. Oh ya i'll be going to Genting Highlands with my besties to study there and do some stuff on Saturday, secret shhh~

OMG party in Bali is seriously a dream come true that the plan is almost complete, only left to click a button for booking. 17th to 20th of September 2010, all three of them will be graduating and i'll always be the baby that finishes last in everything.

Congrats to Furzanne Yeo I-vy, Erina Lim Guat Mooi and Leow Khai Li. You guys are the greatest friends ever!

Rehab!

With some rationale in mind i'm admitting that last night i was overwhelmed with those emo-ing stuff that i slipped off tongue and wrote the previous post. Sorry, i shall say it's my PMS? Lol, laugh over it i'm ok today. Haha

Trying to be independent without laptop, no calls or sms and also not chatting. I managed! Proudly announcing, due to excessive boredom i've created a new application called Tumblr. I've not known what is it about, why not give a try. 

http://hamizah-gh.tumblr.com

Rehab day, did some cleaning of my room with a whole new look after some reposition done. I'm sleepy but i don't feel like sleeping, so just stay awake. Updated my online shop blog, anything more to fill up my super free time?

I Realize

Lately too many things changed, keep changing and will change soon. How phobic i am to this word, "CHANGE" because it's been miserably making me restless due to some reasons.

C

H

A

N

G

E

Not a single letter that repeats, every letter CHANGES.

Who am i? I wish to ask this to everybody, don't i mean a thing to someone at least?

Family

Friends

Society

All neglecting me!

I know i'm not important to any, always i'm the one who finds people that it makes me looked CLINGY padahal i'm not. I just want to be surrounded, not to say clingy but once i feel you guys are near i don't tend to talk to you all the time. For God sake, understand me people.

To Mama & Baba, i guess i'll take your offer to be independent next year and stay outside with the given RM20k. Don't be shocked that i'll be leaving home a year from now, you asked for it. You have been always shuh-ing me out, asked me to be like other students staying in hostel and not manja-ing at home. I've been tolerating it for 4 years and now not anymore, i'm keeping it in my heart this time.

To my friends, i'll be as quiet as possible and only reply when being find me. I will try to be on my own, i can do it. Hopefully, i know it's been a bad thing to know me for some people. I know, just don't deny to jaga hati. Not a need, be frank.

To the society, too bad that i don't need people in my life now because i can survive. I don't live for someone nor something, i bet nothing disturbs right?

I realize things changed, although i hate it so soo sooo much but i have to accept the fact that it happens. Every single thing in this world change, how can i expect for more like things don't change just for me.

WHO AM I?

I'm a nobody in a Nothingland. I just realize it.

Independence

Independent.

What does this mean? My Collin's Birmingham University International Language Database dictionary says, "if someone is independent, they are free to live as they want, because they do not need help and have no obligations to anyone". Okay, sounded scary though.

People said i'm a spoil brat, the question is am i? Some would answer yes, practically most of you do. Haha, nevermind. 

Change topic!

I am learning to be independent, not depending on anyone or anything. Mulalah nak rasa terkapai-kapai, nyanyi lagu "Drowning" by BSB. Sooner or later i'll get used to it, nothing remains forever right. Basically, we only can appreciate.

Truthfully, every year during my finals around this time there's someone with me unlike this year. I'm alone, it makes me feel left out from the world. This is when i tend to remember my memories during my 1st and 2nd year, although bitter facts revealed but it's not a harm to remember some part of it as long as i'm not brought away by it. Hehe

Everybody is busy, who wants to go karaoke with me next week? I have a voucher free head charge expiring end of this month, would love to ask Feeq but i'm afraid i'll disturb him and his work. It's ok, giving away the voucher would be better. AIMAN! Why are u ain't here, i need screamo songs since my stress level dah paras nak cabut rambut sampai botak lah. Come home quick, sobs.

Tiba-tiba i lupa apa mahu tulis, whatever it is i've launched my online store on the 1st of April so do visit yeah. Here's the link, variety of hairclips.

http://herkelip.blogspot.com

APRIL FOOL! I made myself a fool, chose that date since it's not a big deal to be a fool on that particular day. I made a confession to the world, but i don't know whether the specific person notice it or not. I wonder too, biarlah since he has nothing to do with me anymore. I'm moving on, yeah! Again i know, berapa kali nak move on pun i don't know. Tiring la like this, very tired of recovery phase. I can do it!

Any more stories that i left out? Nothing dah kot, by the way my forgetful habit is getting worse now. Adoi, very bad. Sleepy already *yawn yawn* Goodnight, see you!

Neutralism

Being in the middle is always the best, not too much but not too little.

NEUTRAL

It's difficult to do so, bla bla bla i don't know what i'm talking about.

Dear Hamizah's mom,

Your daughter had lost her screw of her brain, please send her to be fixed at the Sony Style. The screw consists of PSP-go, PS3 and Wii. Then she'll be in total good health, she had been out of her mind saying that she hasn't get any device in 2010. Hope you're concern about your daughter, thank you.


Truthfully,
psycho doctor!

Oh ya, did i do a mistake if i say i want to stop studying? I told that to mom and she was stunned, giving me a broken-glass look. What did i do, i'm just telling what i want. Okay you're upset hearing that, but you know this isn't me although i've liked what i am doing right now. 

 Exam! Exam! Finals!

I don't know where to start, which topic to highlight on. Bother la, i'll study everything and be a smart elect. Good idea right? Can't wait for my two months holiday, thought of going to Singapore to do some shopping and check out for my iPad and Macbook Pro since i didn't plan any trip with anyone. See how it goes, my cousin will be going to Jakarta and Bandung so i may tag along. Unsure unsure!

To Furzanne, Khaili & Erina.

When are we meeting up? Jom badminton and swimming, it's been a while we didn't go Tropicana. Good luck in your exams Fuzzy, happy being on Europe trip Erina, happy studying for your exams too Khaili. Reunion coming soon, yeah!

Lastly, wish me lots of luck okay people. I will need it, lots and lots of them. I want to continue snacking, tata~